20200529

Jumat, 29 Mei

#Hariini #today I didn't know what I should write. I  didn't have any idea. 😟😟😟

Besides that, I felt my emotion didn't stable. My memories about others who have offended and hurt me appear in my mind. My mind became full of anger, hate, and revenge. I wanted to curse them with harsh words, but I can't. I just curse them in my mind.

Oh... It was so tiring.
My body didn't tire but my mind was so tired.

I felt that...
I was a bad person.
I didn't suitable to participate in my religion
I was useless
I was a burden to my parents.
I was a disgrace
I was a fail person

So, what for I live?

They didn't like me
They hated me

They looked down me

They?
Yup... They...
They were my family (my brother, my sister in law, my sister, my cousins, my aunts), my friends, my colleagues.

Was it depression?

But I should be a nice person who can follow what they want.

I would be a bad person if I refuse them. 😭😭😭

https://images.app.goo.gl/jiwcYhc5E2Ebpr2d7

Outside, I'm fine

But...

Inside, I broke...

#hariini #cukupsampaidisini #qmo